Thursday, November 26, 2009

first of all i am getting sick, so being at my house in mcdonough is further strangling.
second of all i ordered books (tao lin) and leggings with some kind of 'heat technology' from uniqlo. i will not let the cold restrain me (but weed and a bed and covers and a book only sounds the most appealing thing to do when the heat doesn't work in my house).
third of all i'd just...

Wednesday, November 25, 2009

it is really very interesting to me that i have all of a sudden taken action in my life. i have some new found authority over myself. my vague and general grasp of it all:: i'm prone to mistakes but only willing to make up for them.

getting to know you.

Saturday, November 21, 2009

loose, forward, raw, advanced



i want to think these things because they are charming to think about

so charming that you're that way
i replace myself with passion
you are curious to me
close yet detached
intimate yet not involved

only i can not take my mind off these thoughts

they mean something greater/
what sense does it make to bother myself with someone so rare
rare to me, rare in my life, but that's all they ever will be

it is rare i find someone who wants to feel me as much as i want them inside of me. literal. only then can i give myself. i feel so restrained by words. i have been having trouble lately forming sentences. my writing makes no sense. my thoughts make no sense. i am slowly losing my abilities to a new learned restraint. self taught. i stain myself drunk. not that i piss myself, no, i mean i just ruin myself by it. it is like any other situation in my life. i pass myself to the intoxication; i sit in influence. a compulsion of set influences, hierarchy next to sex.

i am living through another channel, these days.

Wednesday, November 18, 2009

james franco guest stars on general hospital

-interesting - interesting i'm interested cause if nights like that can only be once and varied then i gotta look for more.

Tuesday, November 10, 2009

Thursday, November 5, 2009

a lot of things condensed down to one


i am thankful for my cat my friends my family an above all my ability to perceive things yes?