i'd rather be sleeping

maybe i should give an update on my life.


our water pipes at my house are frozen, thus my life feels a bit frozen. this is mostly because my most basic living moments are spent so frozen. my back is really killing me, the pain caused by the impenetrable cold. moments screaming 'fuck this' in my head while i'm riding to work. mental note: start ordering parts online. i am so fucking lazy about things, i need to really alter that before it prescribes my life. but anyway, there's a really nifty peugeot in my living room right now that somewhat belongs to my roommate, but it's not really his size, actually it's perfectly my size, so i think i'm going to fix it up and adopt it.
nothing else to say other than i'm so excited for my loan money to come in, somewhat excited for next week because i have school again, excited for spring because this means by birthday and canada (by way of new york? boston?) and nice weather for me to pretend like i'm wearing clothes again.

pisces and virgo. i'm silly to think about it like that.

shore city

little did she know, it was going on. she was enveloping, folding; yet sprouting anew. like something that resurfaces every so many years. like those insects, who burrow for three years then come out one summer to mate.

i ask only for blood, sweat, tears

i'm soured and scorned (without you), not in a literal sense, just a feeling i get.

squirm

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this is certainly the highlight of my day so far

photos

trying to figure some things out. i might have to go missing next year for a few months. all for personal development. if i say i'm going to do things then i just need to go ahead and do it. i've got the money to even plan it right now. i think i will, maybe come may i will take a few months away, or if i don't do that try to get back before summer semester. i need to get outttt, seriously, i am strangled, i need to feel alive, although i would be lying if i said i haven't felt so these days.

because i do, overwhelmingly so these days, i've decided it can't be healthy. i simply can not be this content. settled in myself. regardless of anything in my life right now. i'm happy alone, happy go lucky, and charmed.

youth tyuho