i think it was in the dark when i realized it. when you came over to my house, late at night, just to sleep next to me. maybe it was before then, steps ahead, hours and days and conversations before this. or every night you've spent with me. when i wake up before you, and i get to look over next to you. or maybe when you wake up before me, slightly before me, and you'll always grab my hand and kiss it. and every other little instance of affection. how do you know always what i want?

and i think the more i think about it and put it all into perspective is when i realize it even more. i feel so much towards you yet i never really stopped to think about it.

the only thing is, i dont know yet how to tell you. should i, even?